The past few weeks, I have felt so off. I have zero energy. I have zero motivation. I can't focus on anything. I've developed a chronic headache. I have to literally drag myself out of bed at the last minute to do anything, morning or not. I feel like a complete waste of a life at the moment because I'm being so unproductive. And I'm hungry ALL THE TIME, even though I've been putting on weight.
This is all thanks to my Lenten promise of eating no meat.
For the past almost forty days, I have eaten no meat (okay, I cheated one Sunday and had a chicken wing, but it was only one and I actually felt really bad about it later because I had been doing so well and I'm really upset with myself because now I can't say that I went all forty days without meat). My iron and protein levels are so low, its causing my freaking grades to slip. I don't even know what to do. Thank GOD Lent is over next week and I can go back to my happy, upbeat, carnivorous self.
My French grades are especially suffering. I went from an A on the first test to...not good on the most recent one. They have literally been slipping down a hill. They've been getting worse and worse and I feel like I can't stop that. I really tried studying for the last one, but to no avail. Now I have another one tomorrow. I'm so nervous this one is going to be even worse than the last one. Pretty soon I'm going to actually be failing. FAILING. I can't fail! I feel like I'm going NUTS. All my grades are doing the same thing and I feel so helpless because I'm JUST. SO. TIRED.
...rampage much. Sorry. On the bright side of things, a guy I follow on twitter is, at some point, giving away two tickets and backstage passes to a ONE DIRECTION CONCERT!! I'm DYING. He hasn't posted the details yet, but those tickets are MINE.
If only I could feel that motivated about studying...
xoxo
