I have been so incredibly busy I haven't even had time to blog! Which probably isn't completely true, I'm sure I could have made time. But I haven't felt like I've had anything to tell you guys.
Easter break was really nice. I haven't actually been excited to go home, but last week I was dying to go and I actually didn't want to leave on Sunday. I could have stayed a few more days. Not forever, or even a long time, but definitely a few more days. I went bowling with my family and ice skating with my friends from high school. I got to hang out with my old youth group. And I got to stay up really late and sleep in. It was relaxing.
I have a story though. I was debating on whether I would tell this story or not, and I've decided that I will. So remember the guy I told you about, the one from home that I was head over heels for for a long time? Well we had plans to hang out last Thursday. He came over and we just watched TV and joked and laughed and had a splendid time. That is, until he tried to kiss me. HE TRIED TO EFFING KISS ME. Where was he when I was writing sappy love songs about him and dying inside because he didn't want to be with me? When I was thinking about him nonstop and telling myself that one day, when he finally grew up, we would get married? He just had to wait until I finally rid myself of romantic feelings for him and replaced them with completely plantonic ones. Honestly, I was mainly proud of myself for not kissing him (which means we've still never kissed...I'd just like to point out my patheticness). For a long time, when I still had feelings for him but denied it, I told myself I wanted to kiss him just to see what it would be like, just to see what all the years of emotional rollercoastering built up to. But the point is that I still had feelings for him then.
And may I just say that when he text me later saying he was trying to kiss me, it felt SO GOOD to reject him. May I say that? Well I don't care. I said it. It wasn't necessarily like revenge, but it was like the new me (Via, if you will) got to do something that the old me (aka Olivia) never had the heart or backbone to do. It just reminded me how much I've grown. And also, Rachal told me there's some girl at school that's supposedly his girlfriend. Its not listed on Facebook, but I'm definitely not getting into that kind of drama no matter what.
On another note, I'm in the middle of another hell week. I had a French test today (which I actually feel pretty good about!), I have a Chemistry test tomorrow, and I have a Psychology test on Friday. Plus we have rehearsal every day but Saturday from now until show time. Plus there's all this extra stuff I have to do at home for the play, such as memorize a few extra lines and practice all the songs I'm in, singing and blocking. Plus all my classes this semester have regular online homework. Plus I'm in the middle of writing a play for my honors seminar, which is the only actual grade we're getting in that class so it has to be good. Plus we have an OL training thing on Saturday. Plus Alex is coming tomorrow to see me and Anna and she wants to go off and do a bunch of fun things since she's on spring break. Plus I have to eat and breathe to live.
CRAZY.
I have one more thing I want to talk about. I'm possibly going to audition for The X Factor: USA in a few weeks. ...!!!!! I can't believe it. They're coming to Greensboro. GREENSBORO, NORTH CAROLINA. This is seriously never going to happen again. This is only season two of the America version of the show, and last season the closest they came to here was Nashville. But they're coming to North Carolina this year! I swear, it was like it was meant to be. I really, really want to go audition in person, and I half convinced my mom of my plan. But she has to convince my dad, and its going to be hard. But the good news is if I can't go to the Greensboro audition, I can send in a video online! That's never the best option, but its better than nothing. I only have about four days left to send in a video though, so I NEED Mom to make a decision really soon. As in, she should have made it today. I'm just so nervous. I want to do this so bad, but there's a lot of things getting in the way. I just have a really good feeling about it. And I'm very intuitive.
Well I had more to talk about than I thought. I'm going to try to keep up with this better, I promise! I'd like to end this blog with a collection of lessons I've learned within the past week: Boys want what they can't have. Keep breathing, keep moving, and you'll make it out alive. And where there's a will, there's always a way.
xoxo
