Now Playing: Stand Up - One Direction
I have seriously been so busy lately I've been planning when I can breathe. So sorry I haven't blogged in a while.
The main thing in my life is that TONIGHT IS THE OPENING NIGHT FOR WORKING!! I can't believe it. I'm finally going to be back on the stage (sort of...our stage set up is a bit unorthodox) and in front of an audience. I'm so incredibly excited but I'm nervous at the same time I want to throw up (too much?). Right now I'm just sitting on my bed blogging to you guys because my hair and make up are done. I probably started it a bit early, but oh well. I'm just so excited.
Rehearsals have been taking up my whole life. I've hardly had time to do homework or anything else. In that sense, I'm really glad its almost over. But at the same time, the cast has really bonded and I'm going to miss them a lot. Plus, I won't get to be on stage again until I audition for another play and get a part. Anyway, I love rehearsal time. I remember the first rehearsal. It was so unorganized and no one knew what they were doing. Now we have a show. And its a damn good show.
There's not a lot of other news. I'm just ready for the semester to be over. Two more days of classes, four exams, and then you can stick a fork in me cause I will be a crispy golden-brown DONE. I also get to go home Monday night, which I'm kind of excited about. My sister, Rachal, is being confirmed that night. I'll probably stay until Wednesday just because I can. I think I like being home so much now because being at school is associated with stress and work and I don't like those things. Being at home is associated with doing nothing and relaxing. I like those things.
Next Wednesday I'm auditioning for a play the theatre department is producing next semester. Its about Zorro. Too cool. So I'm excited about that.
Oh, one more thing. They turned me down for the Seahawk Link thing. I was kind of upset, but I kind of expected it too since I couldn't make it to the training dates. It'll be okay, I'll just try again next year.
Okay, I killed just enough time to freshen my make up and leave! WISH ME LUCK!
xoxo
4.26.2012
4.17.2012
Crunch Time
The year is winding down, and EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING AT ONCE. I've got finals coming up in less than two weeks, my play opens next Thursday, and all the real orientation stuff is about to start next month. Plus I'll be doing a lot of moving and cleaning in the next few weeks/months. And as always, I'm so overwhelmed that I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT.
Everytime I start to feel like I have a lot going on, I just stop being productive. Earlier today instead of copying sociology notes or doing psychology homework or reading for my honors seminar or working on my stuff for my play, I watched One Direction videos online. For three hours. THREE HOURS. I could have gotten so much done, but I just...didn't. I think what I really need to start doing is skipping Friends from 11:00-1:00 AM...and GO TO BED. I just don't sleep ever. I go to sleep at two and get up at nine. It sounds like a lot of hours but really its not. Especially since I got zero sleep Thrusday through Saturday nights. I can't even focus on finishing this freaking blog post. So. Stressed. Out.
So...goodnight.
Everytime I start to feel like I have a lot going on, I just stop being productive. Earlier today instead of copying sociology notes or doing psychology homework or reading for my honors seminar or working on my stuff for my play, I watched One Direction videos online. For three hours. THREE HOURS. I could have gotten so much done, but I just...didn't. I think what I really need to start doing is skipping Friends from 11:00-1:00 AM...and GO TO BED. I just don't sleep ever. I go to sleep at two and get up at nine. It sounds like a lot of hours but really its not. Especially since I got zero sleep Thrusday through Saturday nights. I can't even focus on finishing this freaking blog post. So. Stressed. Out.
So...goodnight.
4.14.2012
Now Playing: Vulnerable - Secondhand Serenade
I've been staring at my screen for a very long time because for some reason I can't put to words what I just realized. Not that its an incredible, life-changing epiphany or anything. Its significant enough that I want to blog about it, though.
First, I must say that I had an awesome weekend because my best friend in the whole world Alex finally came and visited Wilmington! She came on Thursday and left today, and last night we and Anna stayed at a hotel in Myrtle Beach. We seriously had an incredible time. I miss hanging out with her so much.
Okay. Its about to get kind of serious.
So I've been feeling pretty desperate to find a boyfriend lately and I'm not really sure why, but more importantly I don't really know what to do about it. I feel like I've been handling it weirdly and I'm not getting any happier or any less desperate. But last night I finally met a guy who was actually really sweet and respectful. And attractive! And even though I'm not going to date/marry/have kids with him for a variety of reasons, it just kind of made me realize that boys like him exist and it is possible for them to be single and attracted to me too. I just have to wait to find one I can keep.
Okay, serious time over. Whew. Anyway, I'm warding off bad boys for good now. I'm feeling much more confident and much less desperate now. Thanks to this boy that I'll never see again.
Funny how things work out sometimes.
xoxo
I've been staring at my screen for a very long time because for some reason I can't put to words what I just realized. Not that its an incredible, life-changing epiphany or anything. Its significant enough that I want to blog about it, though.
First, I must say that I had an awesome weekend because my best friend in the whole world Alex finally came and visited Wilmington! She came on Thursday and left today, and last night we and Anna stayed at a hotel in Myrtle Beach. We seriously had an incredible time. I miss hanging out with her so much.
Okay. Its about to get kind of serious.
So I've been feeling pretty desperate to find a boyfriend lately and I'm not really sure why, but more importantly I don't really know what to do about it. I feel like I've been handling it weirdly and I'm not getting any happier or any less desperate. But last night I finally met a guy who was actually really sweet and respectful. And attractive! And even though I'm not going to date/marry/have kids with him for a variety of reasons, it just kind of made me realize that boys like him exist and it is possible for them to be single and attracted to me too. I just have to wait to find one I can keep.
Okay, serious time over. Whew. Anyway, I'm warding off bad boys for good now. I'm feeling much more confident and much less desperate now. Thanks to this boy that I'll never see again.
Funny how things work out sometimes.
xoxo
4.12.2012
Long time, no blog
I have been so incredibly busy I haven't even had time to blog! Which probably isn't completely true, I'm sure I could have made time. But I haven't felt like I've had anything to tell you guys.
Easter break was really nice. I haven't actually been excited to go home, but last week I was dying to go and I actually didn't want to leave on Sunday. I could have stayed a few more days. Not forever, or even a long time, but definitely a few more days. I went bowling with my family and ice skating with my friends from high school. I got to hang out with my old youth group. And I got to stay up really late and sleep in. It was relaxing.
I have a story though. I was debating on whether I would tell this story or not, and I've decided that I will. So remember the guy I told you about, the one from home that I was head over heels for for a long time? Well we had plans to hang out last Thursday. He came over and we just watched TV and joked and laughed and had a splendid time. That is, until he tried to kiss me. HE TRIED TO EFFING KISS ME. Where was he when I was writing sappy love songs about him and dying inside because he didn't want to be with me? When I was thinking about him nonstop and telling myself that one day, when he finally grew up, we would get married? He just had to wait until I finally rid myself of romantic feelings for him and replaced them with completely plantonic ones. Honestly, I was mainly proud of myself for not kissing him (which means we've still never kissed...I'd just like to point out my patheticness). For a long time, when I still had feelings for him but denied it, I told myself I wanted to kiss him just to see what it would be like, just to see what all the years of emotional rollercoastering built up to. But the point is that I still had feelings for him then.
And may I just say that when he text me later saying he was trying to kiss me, it felt SO GOOD to reject him. May I say that? Well I don't care. I said it. It wasn't necessarily like revenge, but it was like the new me (Via, if you will) got to do something that the old me (aka Olivia) never had the heart or backbone to do. It just reminded me how much I've grown. And also, Rachal told me there's some girl at school that's supposedly his girlfriend. Its not listed on Facebook, but I'm definitely not getting into that kind of drama no matter what.
On another note, I'm in the middle of another hell week. I had a French test today (which I actually feel pretty good about!), I have a Chemistry test tomorrow, and I have a Psychology test on Friday. Plus we have rehearsal every day but Saturday from now until show time. Plus there's all this extra stuff I have to do at home for the play, such as memorize a few extra lines and practice all the songs I'm in, singing and blocking. Plus all my classes this semester have regular online homework. Plus I'm in the middle of writing a play for my honors seminar, which is the only actual grade we're getting in that class so it has to be good. Plus we have an OL training thing on Saturday. Plus Alex is coming tomorrow to see me and Anna and she wants to go off and do a bunch of fun things since she's on spring break. Plus I have to eat and breathe to live.
CRAZY.
I have one more thing I want to talk about. I'm possibly going to audition for The X Factor: USA in a few weeks. ...!!!!! I can't believe it. They're coming to Greensboro. GREENSBORO, NORTH CAROLINA. This is seriously never going to happen again. This is only season two of the America version of the show, and last season the closest they came to here was Nashville. But they're coming to North Carolina this year! I swear, it was like it was meant to be. I really, really want to go audition in person, and I half convinced my mom of my plan. But she has to convince my dad, and its going to be hard. But the good news is if I can't go to the Greensboro audition, I can send in a video online! That's never the best option, but its better than nothing. I only have about four days left to send in a video though, so I NEED Mom to make a decision really soon. As in, she should have made it today. I'm just so nervous. I want to do this so bad, but there's a lot of things getting in the way. I just have a really good feeling about it. And I'm very intuitive.
Well I had more to talk about than I thought. I'm going to try to keep up with this better, I promise! I'd like to end this blog with a collection of lessons I've learned within the past week: Boys want what they can't have. Keep breathing, keep moving, and you'll make it out alive. And where there's a will, there's always a way.
xoxo
Easter break was really nice. I haven't actually been excited to go home, but last week I was dying to go and I actually didn't want to leave on Sunday. I could have stayed a few more days. Not forever, or even a long time, but definitely a few more days. I went bowling with my family and ice skating with my friends from high school. I got to hang out with my old youth group. And I got to stay up really late and sleep in. It was relaxing.
I have a story though. I was debating on whether I would tell this story or not, and I've decided that I will. So remember the guy I told you about, the one from home that I was head over heels for for a long time? Well we had plans to hang out last Thursday. He came over and we just watched TV and joked and laughed and had a splendid time. That is, until he tried to kiss me. HE TRIED TO EFFING KISS ME. Where was he when I was writing sappy love songs about him and dying inside because he didn't want to be with me? When I was thinking about him nonstop and telling myself that one day, when he finally grew up, we would get married? He just had to wait until I finally rid myself of romantic feelings for him and replaced them with completely plantonic ones. Honestly, I was mainly proud of myself for not kissing him (which means we've still never kissed...I'd just like to point out my patheticness). For a long time, when I still had feelings for him but denied it, I told myself I wanted to kiss him just to see what it would be like, just to see what all the years of emotional rollercoastering built up to. But the point is that I still had feelings for him then.
And may I just say that when he text me later saying he was trying to kiss me, it felt SO GOOD to reject him. May I say that? Well I don't care. I said it. It wasn't necessarily like revenge, but it was like the new me (Via, if you will) got to do something that the old me (aka Olivia) never had the heart or backbone to do. It just reminded me how much I've grown. And also, Rachal told me there's some girl at school that's supposedly his girlfriend. Its not listed on Facebook, but I'm definitely not getting into that kind of drama no matter what.
On another note, I'm in the middle of another hell week. I had a French test today (which I actually feel pretty good about!), I have a Chemistry test tomorrow, and I have a Psychology test on Friday. Plus we have rehearsal every day but Saturday from now until show time. Plus there's all this extra stuff I have to do at home for the play, such as memorize a few extra lines and practice all the songs I'm in, singing and blocking. Plus all my classes this semester have regular online homework. Plus I'm in the middle of writing a play for my honors seminar, which is the only actual grade we're getting in that class so it has to be good. Plus we have an OL training thing on Saturday. Plus Alex is coming tomorrow to see me and Anna and she wants to go off and do a bunch of fun things since she's on spring break. Plus I have to eat and breathe to live.
CRAZY.
I have one more thing I want to talk about. I'm possibly going to audition for The X Factor: USA in a few weeks. ...!!!!! I can't believe it. They're coming to Greensboro. GREENSBORO, NORTH CAROLINA. This is seriously never going to happen again. This is only season two of the America version of the show, and last season the closest they came to here was Nashville. But they're coming to North Carolina this year! I swear, it was like it was meant to be. I really, really want to go audition in person, and I half convinced my mom of my plan. But she has to convince my dad, and its going to be hard. But the good news is if I can't go to the Greensboro audition, I can send in a video online! That's never the best option, but its better than nothing. I only have about four days left to send in a video though, so I NEED Mom to make a decision really soon. As in, she should have made it today. I'm just so nervous. I want to do this so bad, but there's a lot of things getting in the way. I just have a really good feeling about it. And I'm very intuitive.
Well I had more to talk about than I thought. I'm going to try to keep up with this better, I promise! I'd like to end this blog with a collection of lessons I've learned within the past week: Boys want what they can't have. Keep breathing, keep moving, and you'll make it out alive. And where there's a will, there's always a way.
xoxo
4.02.2012
Lent
The past few weeks, I have felt so off. I have zero energy. I have zero motivation. I can't focus on anything. I've developed a chronic headache. I have to literally drag myself out of bed at the last minute to do anything, morning or not. I feel like a complete waste of a life at the moment because I'm being so unproductive. And I'm hungry ALL THE TIME, even though I've been putting on weight.
This is all thanks to my Lenten promise of eating no meat.
For the past almost forty days, I have eaten no meat (okay, I cheated one Sunday and had a chicken wing, but it was only one and I actually felt really bad about it later because I had been doing so well and I'm really upset with myself because now I can't say that I went all forty days without meat). My iron and protein levels are so low, its causing my freaking grades to slip. I don't even know what to do. Thank GOD Lent is over next week and I can go back to my happy, upbeat, carnivorous self.
My French grades are especially suffering. I went from an A on the first test to...not good on the most recent one. They have literally been slipping down a hill. They've been getting worse and worse and I feel like I can't stop that. I really tried studying for the last one, but to no avail. Now I have another one tomorrow. I'm so nervous this one is going to be even worse than the last one. Pretty soon I'm going to actually be failing. FAILING. I can't fail! I feel like I'm going NUTS. All my grades are doing the same thing and I feel so helpless because I'm JUST. SO. TIRED.
...rampage much. Sorry. On the bright side of things, a guy I follow on twitter is, at some point, giving away two tickets and backstage passes to a ONE DIRECTION CONCERT!! I'm DYING. He hasn't posted the details yet, but those tickets are MINE.
If only I could feel that motivated about studying...
xoxo
This is all thanks to my Lenten promise of eating no meat.
For the past almost forty days, I have eaten no meat (okay, I cheated one Sunday and had a chicken wing, but it was only one and I actually felt really bad about it later because I had been doing so well and I'm really upset with myself because now I can't say that I went all forty days without meat). My iron and protein levels are so low, its causing my freaking grades to slip. I don't even know what to do. Thank GOD Lent is over next week and I can go back to my happy, upbeat, carnivorous self.
My French grades are especially suffering. I went from an A on the first test to...not good on the most recent one. They have literally been slipping down a hill. They've been getting worse and worse and I feel like I can't stop that. I really tried studying for the last one, but to no avail. Now I have another one tomorrow. I'm so nervous this one is going to be even worse than the last one. Pretty soon I'm going to actually be failing. FAILING. I can't fail! I feel like I'm going NUTS. All my grades are doing the same thing and I feel so helpless because I'm JUST. SO. TIRED.
...rampage much. Sorry. On the bright side of things, a guy I follow on twitter is, at some point, giving away two tickets and backstage passes to a ONE DIRECTION CONCERT!! I'm DYING. He hasn't posted the details yet, but those tickets are MINE.
If only I could feel that motivated about studying...
xoxo
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