Why are all boys such jerks? I mean...no thats exactly what I mean. Are there really no guys out there that actually want to have a relationship or actually care about girls at all? I just don't understand why guys don't seem to ever have emotions. Its not that hard to feel.
Maybe I'm just desparate. Maybe thats why I keep looking for different boys, even if I'm not looking in the right places. Maybe I'll take anything.
And maybe my desparation and frustration are the reasons why I'm in love with a fictional character. Peeta Mellark. I wish boys like him existed. I wish someone like him loved me the way he loves Katniss. Its quite pathetic that I dream about fictional characters like this, I know. But can you blame me? Especially since they put Josh Hutcherson's face to the name. Anyway, Peeta is perfect. He's gentle and kind and confident and always says the right thing. Boys like that don't exist in the real world. And I blame authors and movie script writers and all those people that invent perfect boys for my high expectations.
All I know is that Via isn't good at dealing with her boy frustrations. But then again, Olivia isn't either. Maybe I need a new identity. So I guess I'm going to go crawl back into my cocoon now and hope I come out more secure and unflappable this time.
xoxo
