This morning I had a French test. The only problem is that I had forgotten that this morning I had a French test. I didn't study for it at all. I'm pretty confident that I pulled it off anyway, but I'm still kind of worried. I also had a test in Psychology. Thankfully I knew about that test and could prepare for it properly. I got an 86 on it. Not as good as the last test, but not bad.
Tonight some of the OLs are going to a recording studio in town. We're going to sing the song that goes with our dance so we have a track to back our voices up at SROW. I'm so excited they asked me to come! Not many people are going. I just love being in a recording studio. Its so exhilarating and intimidating at the same time. Exciting. Definitely exciting.
And now for the big news. Slip is coming to see me. Yes, thats right. He's coming tonight after the recording session. We'll probably just go grab some Fuzzy Peach (the local froyo place. Its SO GOOD. And its a Wilmington/UNCW staple) and hang out. I'm pretty nervous about how this is going to go, though. I mean, this will be the first time we'll meet in person. This date could make or break any potential ANYTHING between us. If we don't work in person, there will be no point in continuing talking to each other the way that we do.
Honestly, I'm not sure how well I even want tonight to go. I have so many personal issues with the whole long distance thing, especially starting out that way. But passing up someone like Slip would be...well, dumb. He already seems to really care about me, and if anything came from this I know he would treat me right. But at the same time, I just don't know if its worth not being around each other a lot. And for that reason, part of me wants tonight to be weird or not fun or bad in any way, because then I would have a legitimate reason to break things off. I wouldn't feel as bad saying that I didn't like him like I thought I could, rather than saying "its not that I don't like you, its that I don't know if it would work out." If we both end up really liking each other at the end of the night, telling him that I'm skeptical about starting anything will be that much harder on both of us. And then there's the problem that I'm going to want it to go wrong and I'll be reserved and not myself and close myself off to him just to, I don't know, protect my own or his feelings. And I'm thinking so much about it that I'm freaking myself out and my stomach has been in knots all day.
So, that's tonight. Then tomorrow we have dance practice again, then I'm going to another party with Colleen and her friends. I'm actually really excited to let Via come out again. But I'm also feeling kind of weird about that. What if I see the guy from last weekend again? I'm not sure how I'm supposed to act...
This is one reason I like being Via. I don't think so much when I'm Via. Olivia thinks waaay too much.
To end this post, I would like to share a picture with you guys. I found a picture on Pinterest that is absolutely perfect for me, and you guys will understand why! I made it my background on my laptop. I love it.
