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I absolutely love my OL family.
They're seriously all so great. I can't even begin to explain how amazing this weekend was.
The main point was for all of us to get to know each other better. And I don't mean just things like what's your favorite color or what are your strengths and weaknesses. I mean the deep stuff. We laughed together and we cried together. We stayed up all night to explore the forts and to play board games and to just talk. We grew. We bonded. And I love every one of them.
I can already tell this year is going to be even better than I initially anticipated.
By the way, the guy I said I was going to try and talk to ended up not being able to do OL at all this year. Sad face. But the other guy I mentioned, the hot one that is a supposed d-bag...well I really couldn't stop myself from staring sometimes, and when I noticed him staring back, I really couldn't stop myself from flirting just a little. So bad, I know. But I don't get any kind of bad vibe from him at all. Actually at one point during the retreat he said something about getting frustrated with people who think they can get whatever they want for free and forever. I think that's what he said. Anyway, either he isn't a bad guy like I've been told or he's a hypocrite. I'm hoping for the first, because he was totally flirting back and it would kill me to have to let a guy that gorgeous go.
I have two stories to tell about...lets name him Zuko. Last night we played a game where all of us write a question on a piece of paper and put them in a hat, then draw out a different question and answer it honestly. Most of the questions ended up being pretty sexual (I won't even go into specifics...use your imagination). I got lucky my first time because I drew the question "What did you do after your senior prom?" All I did after prom was go to my friend's house and eat with a few other people. But later they made me draw again since mine wasn't good. I still honestly got really lucky, because the question was "Who on the OL team would you hook up with?" That's so mild compared to the rest of the questions. The only problem is the guy I automatically thought about was sitting right next to me and I've already been hoping something would happen (not necessarily a hook up, because 1. I'm not a hooking up kind of girl, and 2. because that would be really unprofessional). So I felt pretty awkward. I really should have just been super breezy about it and said, "Oh thats easy. Zuko." Or even, "Oh-oh oh-oh! I. do. not. hook. uh-up, uh-up! But, definitely Zuko." But of course, I tried to stall and made the situation awkward, then finally said, "Well I guess I'd have to go with Zuko." It wasn't even a big deal. People were saying they would do a lot of worse things with each other. I'm just...I don't even know. Stupid. His face turned a little red though, and he mentioned later that "its a good thing you just said me" or something like that, which kind of made it sound like I used him as a scapegoat to get out of the question. Welp. Ruined that one. Sigh.
I'm not sure if I said this before, but we went to Fort Caswell. The house we stayed in was literally right on the beach and all weekend it was bright and sunny. Freezing cold, but sunny. Last night while I was getting ready to go to sleep one of the girls and I were talking about going to see the sunrise this morning before breakfast, and I had never sat down before and just watched the sun rise, and especially not on the beach. Then I got an amazing idea to go in the common room before I went to bed for the night and asking if anyone else would want to come with us, seeing as how Zuko might want to come (if not for the sunrise, then to sit out there with me at least). Two of the other girls jumped at the idea, and guess who else did? Yep. Zuko. I was excited because that was secretly my whole plan anyway. So this morning the five of us got up at 7:00 and went down to the beach to watch the sunrise. Zuko sat next to me snuggled up under the blanket I had (insert winky face here).
This is all really trivial stuff though. I want something concrete to happen. Like for him to text me or something. I don't know.
He's still perfect eye candy though. Even if nothing actually happens, I'll have something to look at for the rest of the semester.
