Every night I face the same problem. I lay down and I'm so tired, but I just can't sleep. I don't feel sleepy. Just tired.
So I'm going to try to blog it out of me. Today we finally went back to bio lab for the first time in two weeks and the second time ever. A girl on my floor in my dorm is in the lab with me (we figured this out last night) and we realized that we had been working together (sort of) the last time we had the lab. Even though my real parter was the cute boy. So we studied together before the lab today and sat together during. Most of the seats were full by the time we got there. And so the cute boy had no where near us to sit. I was sad. Like I said, I'm trying not to be too attached to Bob since he's still kind of a flaky prospect.
Anyway, the girl and I, plus another guy sitting next to us, worked together for a few minutes. Then Cute Boy came over and said, "I think I work better with you guys. Think we can get the gang back together?" and smiled adorably and so of course I said, "Come on over!" We all worked together for the next two-ish hours. The girl and I had already decided we would go eat dinner after lab, and we invited Cute Boy to come with. So the three of us went to the main cafeteria on campus, Wag, since we thought it would be the only place open after eight. My new friends are very nice, and we were having great conversations on the way up. We walked in the cafeteria, get our cards swiped, and walked towards the food. Then all of a sudden I looked up and who is thirty feet away from me walking to drop his dishes off in the dish pit?
BOB.
Seriously, its a sign. I'm actually hanging out with the other cute boy I'd had on my mind (not alone...but still) and he's there. No matter how much I try to keep myself distant and my options open, no matter how many times wonder how we're going to work out when we still haven't taken any next steps yet, no matter how much I question how often he thinks about his ex and if he's talking to her when he takes too long to text me back...he always shows up. He's always there when I think he's not, or when I'm not thinking about him at all. And even though we just waved at each other (no, he didn't come say hi to me or stop to chat or anything...jerk), he still had text me back before I had finished getting food on my plate even though he'd been taking forever to accomplish this simple task before.
So these are the questions I will ponder as I try to fight my insomnia: Can these really be weird coincidences or is it just meant to be with Bob and I have to be patient? Should I still try to get Cute Boy's number or should I just let the other girl have him? Will Bob quit taking five years to text me back and make me sure that something will happen so all these questions can just be answered already?
And on top of all this, my classes are approaching first exam times.
Life is complicated.
