Its becoming increasingly more difficult to not be attached to Bob. He's so incredibly sweet and understanding. He's funny and confident and so cute. He's turning out to be kind of perfect. Except he's not. There are things about him I don't like, and that makes him even better.
But he still hasn't said anything about being exclusive. And that one isn't my call, which sucks. I don't like being at the mercy of others. I just don't know if he even knows I'm just waiting for him to say the magic words. He's told me explicitly that he hasn't been hanging out with any other girls like that. And I'm not hanging out with any other guys like that (as long as he doesn't take too long and I don't get up with Cute Boy...). Its like, we're exclusive, but we're not. He doesn't kiss me in front of other people. Not a quick goodbye kiss or anything. Which is a big sign that he's not ready to be in an actual relationship.
He's just stressing me out.
I also have a biology exam on Monday, an oceanography exam on Thursday and theatre and calculus exams the week after next. I'm going to be studying my boo-tay off tomorrow and this weekend for bio. I need to read my calc book and study my oceanography notes. This is about to be a long two weeks.
Its going to be kind of hard to study this weekend, though. I'm going home (again!) and I feel like I'm not going to do anything while I'm there. I don't necessarily want to go home, but I'm really excited at the same time because my sister and I are performing in some show on Saturday. I'm going to miss Bob. I'm going to miss my room here and this campus. Its only going to be a few days, but I just know I'm going to be sad not being here.
Sigh.
