This is the first time since I've been here that I've felt the need to cry.
I just took my first real exam. Not for Freshman Seminar. Biology. The test itself made me want to cry, so don't even get me started on the grade I received on it...
72.46.
Thank GOD colleges follow the ten-point grading scale. But thats still a C. I only get four grades in that class, which are all the exams. I really, really wanted to try for A's. But to make an A in that class now, I'd have to make a 96 or better on all the other exams, and that seems impossible.
Of course, its not impossible. But I called my mom as soon as I left the library and almost cried to her about it (although, somehow, I refrained. I was in public, after all...embarassing much?). She consoled me by saying that she and my daddy are proud of me anyway because I'm doing so well adjusting. She said that she knew I was doing the best I can, and thats way more important than making A's. She told me not to set myself up for failure by getting upset when I don't make A's, because the first semester of college is about figuring out what you're good at and what you need to work on, like taking notes or studying.
She's completely right. Remember that, guys. Its important to set realistic goals for yourself. College tests aren't just memorizing vocabulary words, scientists, dates and information. They're about applying what you learned in class to real life and understanding concepts. Its so much different.
So for now, I'm okay. But starting tonight and for the rest of the week, my suitemate Kenzie and I are going to be studying like no other for Oceanography. I'm going to kill this test. I'm determined. But for now, I'm listening to the CDs Bob lent me and relaxing. Hands Down by Dashboard Confessional is an amazing song. Its old, but its awesome.
Man. I thought I was going to get through this post without mentioning him...
