The title is a bit of a pun. In one way, I mean that I'm literally changing my major. In the other way, I mean I had a huge epiphany yesterday and had a major change occur inside of me.
I want to be an actress, and I'm changing my major to performance theatre.
Its all part of the college experience to discover who you are. I've always felt like I don't know who I am or what I'm supposed to do. I've never had a real "passion" like other people. Something that I did all the time that I loved and knew I wanted to do for a living. But I've always loved acting. And I've always put it to the side because I was under the impression that I couldn't do it. Not that I wasn't talented enough, but that it would just never happen. But yesterday my theatre professor had three guys come in a talk to our class about acting (he's already had a set designer and two directors come in. He's just trying to show us different aspects of theatre). One of the speakers is an acting professor at the school. The other two are his friends, and they're actually famous guys. Like, they're on IMDb and everything (Tony Reynolds and Shon Blotzer. Look them up. I talked to them. They know me. We're cool. Yeah, you jelz). Anyway, as they were talking about how they came to be actors, especially Shon whose situation is a lot like mine (always loved it but didn't think it was possible), I realized that I've been fooling myself for a long time. For so many years I told myself to forget about it and that it wouldn't work so there was no point in trying. But yesterday I saw that it was possible. And I realized how badly I wanted it. After class, me and two other students in the class stayed back and talked to the guys for a bit. Tony told us that what we need to be doing now is getting a reel together and building our resumes. That's what I plan on doing. I'm going to try to get in some student films and audition for plays. I'm going to do this.
Then I had to tell my mom. She wasn't happy, but I told her its what I love and what I want to do with my life, and I can't imagine being truly happy any other way. She reluctantly agreed to the major switch, but said she would need some time to get used to the idea. She's just worried about me getting too caught up in the business and changing too much and becoming anorexic or something. But I'm stronger than that.
I don't even have to become famous. Thats what I used to want when I was younger. I wanted to act so I could be famous. But not anymore. I just want to act for the art of it.
