My first college class starts in less than eight hours.
You might be wondering why I'm still awake. Well I'm wondering as well. If someone could tell me, that would be great.
Today was interesting. My...friend came up to see me and it was nice but...well just but. Its complicated. But my roommate and I finally clicked! My friend asked her to come eat with us and she hung out with me and my friends after he went back home. She's really, really cool. We were chatting away the whole way back from Sweta's dorm to ours.
I feel like I'm already such a different person. But not in a way that I'm changing my morals or becoming a monk or anything like that. Nothing drastic. But I can hear myself talking differently. I feel more outgoing and comfortable talking to strangers. I feel like its easier for me to meet new people. And its honestly because of Hannah. She is so infectious, she's rubbing off on me. Its so strange.
I haven't decided whether this is good or bad. I mean, there's absoluely nothing wrong with the things that are changing, and Hannah is just a gem, but I don't want to end up someones clone. I don't want people to see me as a someone's groupie or follower. I want to be the best version of ME I can be. But she makes it so so easy to talk to people. Because of her, I walk around campus and random people say, "Hey, Olivia!" That has literally happened. Because of her, I know half of the International House, and they are THE coolest people in the world...literally. Because of her, I feel a lot more confident, like people notice me a little bit more, and like I'm genuinely pretty (she's told me I am numerous times, and it makes me feel good to know someone who just met me thinks I'm pretty, not someone who knows me really well and feels obligated to say it). This all sounds a little Disney Channel, but its the truth.
I'm changing...for better or for worse?
