Okay. These are the former and current deals.
Former: Prior to today, the past week has been a horrible, terrible, twisting and sickening emotional roller coaster ride.
Current: I am mentally frolicking through a field of teal flowers.
I guess I should explain. I thought I wasn't going to college.
We didn't have any funding for this semester and I didn't fill out my FAFSA on time and I thought I was going to be deferred until the spring but my school can't do that and told me I'd have to wait until next year to go to school and I threw a complete and utter fit and wailed to my mom and screamed that their had to be a way and....
That's actually not an exaggeration. I can't begin to explain to any person on this planet how I felt. I could hardly breathe. I skipped a grade in middle school, and I was feeling so utterly broken and worthless and like all my accomplishments and skipping a grade meant absolutely nothing anymore. I thought I was going to be stuck in my wretched (its not that wretched, it just really, really feels that way) home town for a whole extra year doing absolutely nothing but looking up scholarships for next year and going to work. I thought I was going to DIE. I wouldn't have even had to commit suicide because I would just slowly wither away until my mom came to wake up one day and found a pile of dust on my bed.
So. Moving on to the good part. (Cue the smoke...drum roll please...)
I absolutely hate college websites. They are so confusing. I was told in one email that if I didn't pay my fall bill by August 11 that my classes would be cancelled. We hadn't paid my fall bill by August 11; however, I had not received an email saying my classes had, in fact, been cancelled. So today I went down to UNC Wilmington to get the deal straight. They told me that since my FAFSA was still being processed, I still had the opportunity for loans and grants to be offered to me and that I had to accept them or come up with the money some other way by August 31. When I saw my classes on the woman's computer screen in the Student Account Services website, I almost peed on myself.
I. Still. Had. A. Chance.
I. Was. Going. To. College.
I had to sit down, and my wonderful "big sis" (we're not really related, but we look alike and love each other like sisters) patted my back and smiled goofily and happily with me. I could hardly breathe again, but this time it was a much more pleasant experience of a shortage of oxygen.
So we walked around campus for a bit and visited the gift shop and all that, then hit up the mall and Target for some awesome school shopping. I got an amazingly cute book bag/laptop bag, bed sheets and a comforter, crates for traveling and packing, a laundry hamper and a bathroom caddy. And thats just the beginning.
I feel more ready than ever for Saturday. That's the day my life will change. That's the day that I truly flip the page of my life's book and begin a new chapter. Saturday, August 20, 2011 is the first day of the rest of my life.
